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Hi, however you found your way to my page, either through a common sharing of HPV cancer diagnosis, or knowing or caring for someone who has been diagnosed , in treatment, or post treatment I hope you find a little common ground and something to relate or even smile about. Sharing makes it less lonely and having cancer is a lonely place to be. Mandi x

The Cockwart Saga

85. Just another year.

It was our wedding anniversary on 29th August. We didn't celebrate. Not much to find in 22 years to hash over, apart from the sheer longitude of it tbh. I got flowers, from my mother in law, the following day, and neither of us really felt the need to mention the fact that we had let it slip past majority of the day, until like the elephant in the room I wished him a Happy Anniversary about an hour before we went to bed. This year has been far to dramatic to be worrying abo

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85. Just another year.

It was our wedding anniversary on 29th August. We didn't celebrate. Not much to find in 22 years to hash over, apart from the sheer longitude of it tbh. I got flowers, from my mother in law, the following day, and neither of us really felt the need to mention the fact that we had let it slip past majority of the day, until like the elephant in the room I wished him a Happy Anniversary about an hour before we went to bed. This year has been far to dramatic to be worrying abo

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84. Not a good week.

The cold that wasn't a cold has gone, as as soon as it rained I stopped sneezing! It had made me feel very down the last 2 weeks, in combination to going cold turkey from my beloved fortisip vanilla shakes, and back to normal food totally, topped up with the occasional slim fast. But I have to say I've still felt totally exhausted and not perking up at all. I have a low level pain where they removed the one back tooth which seems to niggle constantly and inside my mouth, the

Aug 244 min read

83. Missing my tonsils.

Well according to the weather, we are not out of the woods heat wise just yet! With a new prediction of the next heat wave, beginning around the bank holiday at the end of August lasting through the first 2 weeks of September. Until we go on holiday in actual fact! The article I sat 'huffing' over, also stated its been the driest summer since 1836, which doesn't at all surprise me, everywhere is as barren as my uterus!😂 I'm not sure what the actual function of the tonsils ar

Aug 174 min read

82. Another 6 week check up

Today is the eclipse, the first one in 27 years they said on the radio this morning in the car as I headed off to Addenbrookes again for the next 6 week check. After the one on 1st July where I was told NED this is now going to be a very routine 6/8 week thing where they do a quick nose cam and ask if I have any issues. I told the wonderful Mr Amen, yes I got to see my favourite ENT surgeon again this time 😍, I am having the all the expected side effects but its nothing tha

Aug 124 min read

81. Coincidences or design?

This is post 81. I found out my Dad died in June, 4 days after his 81st birthday. No one bothered to let me know. We were estranged. In the words of forrest gump....'and thats all I want to say about that...t....'

Aug 111 min read

The Cockwart Saga is a journey of resilience, where every step forward is battle against myself as well as against cancer.

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Welcome to my blog and I hope sharing the good days, the bad days, the screaming, and crying, the laughs and of course, the bad language help you understand this part of my life.

When I sat in that empty corridor on the 4th August 2025 staring at the deli ticket in my hand 'patient 27' I didn't know what was ahead of me.
I knew something wasn't right and had been sure it 'was' something for over a year, but like everyone you never think its going to be you, until it is you!
My first reaction was that I wouldn't even bother, and within 48 hours had booked and paid for my funeral.

I was ready to give in, after losing my mum finally from Frontal Lobe Dementia, and in a surreal un expected shock of an afternoon a week before, my beloved cat BOY, dying out of nowhere in my arms on our kitchen floor, I just felt like rolling over to the cosmic joker and holding up my hands and saying 'ok you win! I'll go quietly!'
But I haven't......
And here is where I tell my story... warts and all!

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