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Hi, however you found your way to my page, either through a common sharing of HPV cancer diagnosis, or knowing or caring for someone who has been diagnosed , in treatment, or post treatment I hope you find a little common ground and something to relate or even smile about. Sharing makes it less lonely and having cancer is a lonely place to be. Mandi x

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74. Given the all clear!

The hospital secretary rung on Tuesday, only 7 days since my colonoscopy and after a bit of confusion I got the news from the consultants nurse that my biopsies had all come back totally negative, not even pre cancerous so I had nothing to worry about. I am well and truly let off the hook in regard to cancer down below! I'm now waiting for Joanne at Addenbrookes to come back off holiday and ring to let me know when my PET scan can go ahead leaving enough healing time from the

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74. Given the all clear!

The hospital secretary rung on Tuesday, only 7 days since my colonoscopy and after a bit of confusion I got the news from the consultants nurse that my biopsies had all come back totally negative, not even pre cancerous so I had nothing to worry about. I am well and truly let off the hook in regard to cancer down below! I'm now waiting for Joanne at Addenbrookes to come back off holiday and ring to let me know when my PET scan can go ahead leaving enough healing time from the

4 hours ago2 min read

73. Life is is more Colosseum than Colonoscopy this weekend.

After the last few days of taking in the news of looking like the pet scan bowel light up last July was purely inflammation or benign polyps, I have found a new calm that I don't think I've felt for about a decade. When my Grandma died in 2014 I had thought my mum had been acting slightly strange and 'off' for some time, but as I didn't live near her, and only could gauge things from limited contact and telephone calls, I put it down to stress, or just her, being extra awkwar

May 244 min read

72. Sliding Doors

I finally went for my colonoscopy yesterday after my Pet Scan last year showed there was signs of cancer in my lower bowel when the area showed focal uptake ( it lit up like cancer cells do) . I call it 'sliding doors moments' Have you ever seen the film with Gwyneth Paltrow where she either missed or doesn't miss the train and the film follows 2 very different versions of her life after.... for me the 'cancer days' are sliding doors days.. You sit there, powerless as to the

May 202 min read

71. If you've got any poo...Throw it now!

Well having rested and recovered from our wonderful trip, I am now back to dreading hospitals and tests again. Today is colonoscopy preparation day! For the past few days I have had to not eat anything that is considered high residue ie veggies, wholegrains, basically everything they tell you to eat more of , and only could eat white everything, rice, bread, potatoes with no skin etc lean meat, sugar and a little bit of dairy. Today I can't eat anything just fluids and have t

May 183 min read

The Cockwart Saga is a journey of resilience, where every step forward is battle against myself as well as against cancer.

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Welcome to my blog and I hope sharing the good days, the bad days, the screaming, and crying, the laughs and of course, the bad language help you understand this part of my life.

When I sat in that empty corridor on the 4th August 2025 staring at the deli ticket in my hand 'patient 27' I didn't know what was ahead of me.
I knew something wasn't right and had been sure it 'was' something for over a year, but like everyone you never think its going to be you, until it is you!
My first reaction was that I wouldn't even bother, and within 48 hours had booked and paid for my funeral.

I was ready to give in, after losing my mum finally from Frontal Lobe Dementia, and in a surreal un expected shock of an afternoon a week before, my beloved cat BOY, dying out of nowhere in my arms on our kitchen floor, I just felt like rolling over to the cosmic joker and holding up my hands and saying 'ok you win! I'll go quietly!'
But I haven't......
And here is where I tell my story... warts and all!

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